Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did you leave us on our own.
You are faithful.
God, you are faithful.
Am I alone?
Sometimes it really feels like it.
I mean - I can be surrounded by people, but I didn't think they get it.
Do they feel alone? or have they ever? is anyone else lost?
I feel like I'm setting on cold concrete.
I am alone and tired and I'm trying to be be brave, but I'm running out of courage. And I feel so very invisible - so very lost and insecure and left behind.
Never once did I ever walk alone.
I wonder how I can sing that if I don't believe it, And I taste the words as I allow them to escape my mouth and I allow myself to digest them. If this is true, why do I still feel so deserted?
Am I making a liar of myself by professing these words?
I wish I could believe that I've never been alone - of how I hope that's true.
I mean - I'm not saying sometimes haven't been fun - but how is it I've been here so long?
It's like being lost at the fair. It's fun at first - you ride the rides, eat a bunch of fried food, see some shows, but eventually the crowd will clear - you'll be out of tickets, have a wicked belly ache - and be alone.
The Ferris wheel will stop spinning. The carneys wipe off their makeup, and it's quiet - save for the bleeding of sheep. as they begin to shut off the lights, you don't know if you should cry or scream.
Scream. I tell you. Scream.
by the time you decide - you don't bother. It's too late. No one is going to hear you. So you sit down alone in the dark, lifeless midway - listening to the barely audible clamor of the animals - who from what you can see have more purpose in their lives than you do.
Never once did you leave me on my own
So you sit there.
and you wait.
and you hope and pray - that tomorrow someone shows up.
tomorrow someone finds you.
But what if they don't?
How can I expect to be found when I don't even knows where I am - or who I am for that matter?
I'm so far from where I 'need' to be - wherever that is.
You are faithful
God, you are faithful
and for now that's all I have...
The faith that I will be found tomorrow.
Never once did you leave us on our own.
You are faithful.
God, you are faithful.
Am I alone?
Sometimes it really feels like it.
I mean - I can be surrounded by people, but I didn't think they get it.
Do they feel alone? or have they ever? is anyone else lost?
I feel like I'm setting on cold concrete.
I am alone and tired and I'm trying to be be brave, but I'm running out of courage. And I feel so very invisible - so very lost and insecure and left behind.
Never once did I ever walk alone.
I wonder how I can sing that if I don't believe it, And I taste the words as I allow them to escape my mouth and I allow myself to digest them. If this is true, why do I still feel so deserted?
Am I making a liar of myself by professing these words?
I wish I could believe that I've never been alone - of how I hope that's true.
I mean - I'm not saying sometimes haven't been fun - but how is it I've been here so long?
It's like being lost at the fair. It's fun at first - you ride the rides, eat a bunch of fried food, see some shows, but eventually the crowd will clear - you'll be out of tickets, have a wicked belly ache - and be alone.
The Ferris wheel will stop spinning. The carneys wipe off their makeup, and it's quiet - save for the bleeding of sheep. as they begin to shut off the lights, you don't know if you should cry or scream.
Scream. I tell you. Scream.
by the time you decide - you don't bother. It's too late. No one is going to hear you. So you sit down alone in the dark, lifeless midway - listening to the barely audible clamor of the animals - who from what you can see have more purpose in their lives than you do.
Never once did you leave me on my own
So you sit there.
and you wait.
and you hope and pray - that tomorrow someone shows up.
tomorrow someone finds you.
But what if they don't?
How can I expect to be found when I don't even knows where I am - or who I am for that matter?
I'm so far from where I 'need' to be - wherever that is.
You are faithful
God, you are faithful
and for now that's all I have...
The faith that I will be found tomorrow.
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